dirty…

Things at work are all going to shit.  Yesterday the health inspector came in and said that pretty much everything had to be cleaned or ’she had the power to close us down’.  Everyone is just getting straight pissed because everything is so disorganized that we all have to do more and more work.  The fucking cleaning people who come in at night and are suppose to clean shit, do a really half ass job, so instead we have to clean and its bullshit!  I had to leave today after only working two hours because I feel incrediably ill, I kinda wished i could have helped out though, the inspector came back sometime after i left to check that everything is clean…. i guess ill see in the morning if i have a job to go to, ha…

dennys is my fate

I got back from pg on the 28th.  The stay there actually got alot better after umm that last post.. ha.  Im going to go back in Feb when I have reading break. I may or may not have a ridiciulous crush on someone there, who i dont even know at all.. but apparently he likes me too. bah, i feel like im 10.

New Years was awesome.  Today is one of my friends birthdays so last night was a birthday/new years celebration.  I only knew a few people and everyone else were friends of the birthday boy, they were all lovely people.  We all drank too much, danced like crazy, went outside in the snow and threw snowballs.. actually chunks of ice.. back and forth! had lots of deep drunk talks… good people.  PLUS, we went to Dennys, which is where i spent last new years.. and i wore the same shirt.. weird. OH and grace phoned me at 3 and told me my little sister was having fun times with mr. z.. haha wow, so fucking funny!

not being here

So this is day 2 in PG and I already want to go home and by home i mean Vancouver, i mean fucking Vancouver.  Boy, did i ever have high expectations for this trip home and boy am i dissapointed as fuck.  Its like im sliding back into the person i was six months ago, its like the people here have not changed at all.  All my anxieties are coming back and I feel gross.  These last few months have probably been the best of my life and coming back here just reminds me of everything… ugg im alittle drunk, drinking with the family.. lots of weird and mean things were said.. maybe ill repost in the morning. fuck i just want to not be here.  but i guess ill make the best of it. bah!

bah bah bah

once again im procrastinating… I have my Sculpture Term Project due next friday and I havent a clue what its going to be. fuck ya!

My aunt has been in town, or in Richmond, which is basically Vancouver, really messes me up thats its considered a different town… ANYWAYS, it was great to see her, i miss home so much sometimes.. and she insisted in buying me shit, like three pairs of jeans.. doubling my pant collection! yay..  

Im realizing im kind of dissapointed with the teachers ive gotten this term, ive made nothing that im actually proud of.  I kind of feel like I would be making better work if i wasnt at school, but next term is coming, and im excited for some new professors and classes I actually get to choose! and in less then a month ill be home!! bah, I cant believe it.

fuck daughters of doctors and the like…

I have so much stuff coming at me that instead of actually getting anything done, i go into shut down mode and do shit all.  I hate when that happens… when i do this.  Then I start making excuses… i have a cold, the left side of my mouth is throbbing with pain, I work too much… blah blah blah.  fuck, why cant i just stop procrastinating. fuck fuck fuck.

anyways, i woke up yesterday morning with horrible pain in two of my teeth on the left side of my mouth, and ive been popping painkillers every four hours since.  I have a project for almost every class due in the next two weeks and im freakin.  Im trying not to stress, but I am, about school, about money!  ugg…

I went from the first day of school to the last day of September without a day off. I was either working or at school everyday.  Now Im getting at least one day off a week and I just waste it, usually napping. I love to nap.  But, if i dont work enough hours, I dont make enough money, then I spend too much of my savings.. then the future Emily is getting screwed over.. and fuck.  When I tell people I go to school with how much I work, they freak out and ask me why my parents arent paying for anything.  That makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time!  some bastards dont know how good they got it… but then again they are bastards who have no work ethic and wouldnt be able to take care of themselves if their lives depended on it… so i guess i win.. i win at life. fuck you, daughters of doctors and the like, fuck you mother fuckers. man i have a high fever.. yay!

Since I moved to Vancouver Ive been told twice, by two seperate people that I remind them of Miranda July.  I cant think of a person id want to be compared to more. yay. Im going to clean my room now and sleep. nice talking with you.. computer

old man cologne

Today was Sculpture class, we had to present our ‘Beautiful Garbage’ projects. It was so interesting to see the crazy crap people came up with! I made a floor mat out of extension cords, I was happy enough with it, just glad its done. 

Then tonight I went Salsa dancing with some of my co-workers. Totally bad idea. I sucked so bad, even worse than i could have imagined.  We kept changing partners and each time we did, we would add more and more complex moves and twirls and i couldnt even do the basic steps.  So many old creepy men laughed at me and now I smell like old man cologne.  Then I came home to a house full of drunk strangers, as one of my roommates is having her birthday party at the house.  Now Im going to try and fall asleep to the sound of people playing rockband upstairs.  Awesome.  Ive actually never witnessed full on rockband until tonight. 

  Grace and I re-started our youtube vlogging, im excited!

september……

fuck, i guess ill just review the past month..

So my motherfucking cunt sucking shitty ass laptop died the day before school started and was on vacation at future shop for two weeks, that was uncool.  Ive been working almost full-time at the bagel shop and going to school full-time aswell, so its been pretty crazy.  This Thursday will be my first day off in over a month.  I dont miss Prince George at all, im not the least bit home sick, I almost feel bad.  I just feel good here, already Ive met so many solid people.

I need to sort out my money and make some kind of budget for myself… I just paid tuition, bought a new ipod and soon i need to get a new bus pass and pay rent, so im getting kind of freaked about money.. yet it doesnt stop me from wasting it on shitty food and booze.. god damn it!

REUNITED: the adventure

Wow, so Grace came yesterday around 5pm and left this afternoon for PG at 3pm.  Since we had such a small amount of time together we decided on the genius plan of not sleeping and spending the entire time awake.  What we did for the most part was restaurant hop.  First we went to DQ and had sundaes (6pm), went to the beach, walked downtown, ate candy apples (7pm), ate yam rolls (8pm), ate french toast and waffles at dennys (10pm), walked back to my place, ate some soup and pie at the naam (4am), walked back to Dennys and ate seasoned fries and split a milkshake (6am), kicked timbits on the burrard bridge, came home grace repacked her bag, then i showed her my place of work and we each ate cinnimum buns (10am) then we walked over to what the online phonebook says is the home of D. Coupland.. we are almost positive it was his house, we wrote him a note and taped it to his garbage can (11am). Then we grabbed Graces shit and took the bus to the airport (2pm) and now im dead tired but cant go to sleep yet or it will mess up my whole sleep cycle. such a good time tho. man.

 

 

yay!

Today was my first day at Emily Carr. It wasnt a real first day, but rather an orientation, I go back tomorrow for another day of it.  There are like 300 of us in foundation, its alittle overwhelming, so many people.  I met some real awesome people though, real awesome.  Im excited for classes to start and to meet more people, its just too exciting, and this whole thing, moving here, its just too good, i havent been this happy for so long. Shit I love it here and tomorrow I get to see GRACE! fuck.  Life is good.  I finally see that. 

my new pals:

 

 

oh, and some weirdness.. I met a lovely girl from winnipeg today and it turns out she knows the girl that I stayed with in winnipeg ( couchsurfed ) on my trip across canada… CRAZY

thanks anyways

 Hmm, i just worked five days and now I have three off! Im having a problem, since I have few pants, I need to go to the laundomat every couple days.  I cant really even wear my pants more then once because the knees get unbelievably dirty when I work, its unreal, they get covered in cinnamon bun junk which attracts the poppy seeds and the sesame seeds and my knees turn into huge globs of goopy nasty-ness. Yesterday I ended up using my first pay cheque on an american apparel shopping spree.. and by that i mean i bought a shirt and a pair of pants.  They have the most unhelpful staff ive ever seen, its awesome. I had to try on 5 or 6 different sizes of the same pant (because i SO dont know my size) and each time I had to walk across the entire store and pick up a different size and not once did anyone (three or four  people working in an empty store) try and help me out.   When I finally paid for my purchase the cashier chick didnt say a word, she took my debt card pressed some buttons handed me the pinpad then passed me my receipt.  I wish I could be that cold and unfriendly, fuck.  The other day some twelve year old on a bike asked me if i could “really quickly buy him a case of beer” and I said, still being in freakishly friendly and polite work mode “no, im sorry I cant, but thanks anyways”.

I dont know what im going to do with myself for three whole fucking days, grr… well tomorrow I was thinking of going to garage sales… hmm.. I need friends, pfft.